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DO NOT SMOKE IF YOU ARE ON BIRTH CONTROL. phew...now that I got that out of the way. I would also suggest that if you go on birth control you get tested before hand for any type of underlying blood clotting disorders. Its a quick and easy blood test that could save your life. Do it for you, do it for your daughters, tell your friends. Mine is Antithrombin iii deficiency, what ever that is. They say that my levels may be lower because I smoke, so once I quit I have to go back and get re tested. FUN TIMES! WOOT WOOT!

Let me tell ya, dont ever get sick. Bills bills bills.
Look at this EOB:

For an office visit. Awesome right!!! Thank god my heart Dr doesn't make me pay what the insurance doesn't cover. He is a wonderful Dr. I love all of my Drs. I am iffy about my neuro but I will get into that later in this post. I want to buy my heart Dr and his office a huge fruit basket. lol I don't know how else to thank them. I am thinking cookies and cake for a heart Dr wouldn't be the best idea. lol

So I wanted to clarify that when I said that Jill Bolte Taylor is right about how you feel after a left side stroke, I didnt mean the euphoria and nirvana parts. I DID NOT feel those things. I felt scared, angry, hurt, pissed off, anxious and all of the other horrible feelings that you get when you find out something traumatic.
The lala land part is right. You kind of don't care as much as you used to, you let things go way too easy. TJ is a lucky guy. My brain won't let me be mad at him for too long. lol I need to start writing more stuff down so I can hold it against him at a later date. lol because that's what women do ya know. Hes a good guy though so I wouldn't be able to be mad at much.

So after I got back to reality from my road trip, I had enough of being miserable in the relationship I was in. I wasnt the only one who was either. All 3 of us were. I left. I didn't handle it the correct way and I still feel bad about the way I left but it had to be done.
I was on my own with my daughter and I was feeling confident. I was starting a new life with her and we were going to be happy.
Now, this whole time I haven't been to any type of cognitive therapy, no physical therapy, no occupational therapy. They say that the first year is the most important when you have a stroke. Why wasn't I sent for therapy? I ask that question to this day. (I will get into that later).
So the house that i moved into was a tiny little thing. I did the best with what I had. It was cute but nothing to brag about. Especially after the animal started living in my daughters ceiling and walls. OMG AN ANIMAL IN MY DAUGHTERS CEILING AND WALLS!!! lol There was a hole in the side of the house that I didn't know about. It would come in and out like it own the place and that sucker was huge!! They think it might have been an opossum. I told my landlord about it and he did nothing. So you know what I did. I got the f out of there. My daughter is way to important to me. I didnt need some crazy animal burrowing in her walls and god forbid getting into her room one night when she was sleeping. So here we go again, another move.
I have to back track. When i was living in that little house I went to a bbq and ran into an old friend TJ. We hung out a couple times and had a good time. I was not expecting this at all. It was a few months after I had moved out and I was happy being single. I didn't want to be serious about someone because of Brianna. I didn't even want him to meet her. I eventually let them into each others lives and now they love each other tons. I fought it but he won. lol We have been together ever since.
I guess I am a serial relationshiper.