When it rains my whole body hurts. The Drs think its the cholesterol meds I have to take. It sucks. My cholesterol has never even been high, they just put me on it for preventative measures. Hopefully I can get some of these meds knocked down with time. My plavix costs about 50 dollars a pill without insurance. Insane. This is a med that keeps you alive. I guess thats why they feel it should cost so much. What a joke.
Another side effect I have is dizziness. I think its from the stroke. If I have the TV on and someone tries to talk to me, its too much, my brain hurts and I get dizzy. If I go to the mall, forget about it. I feel like I am going to pass out, then if I have to go up the escalator I hold on for dear life. If i am driving an there is a lot of traffic, I get dizzy. I have to stay in the slow lane on the highway lol The joys of having a stroke!
Back to my story, I go into therapy then had to leave. What a tease. I guess I can eventually get back into it but for now I can't afford it. I have a daughter to take care of. So with all of this going on I ended up moving out of my friends house and moved in with my boyfriend. I am tired of moving. I need to stay in one place lol
It was definitely another adjustment for me and Brianna. It was also an adjustment for my boyfriend. He now has a child in his house part time. Thank god Brianna and TJ love each other to death.
Now we are up to last year. I started having chest pains again a day after my birthday. I went back to the hospital because thats what they told me I should do every single time I have pain. I sometimes feel like "what if its nothing and I am making a big deal out of it?" I guess its better safe than sorry. I had another abnormal EKG and stress test. They did another cardic cath. Let me tell you, they do not get any more fun. This time though I actually asked them if i could see my stent. I must have been really high on whatever they gave me if I asked them that. lol They didn't find anything with the cath so the Dr said it is stress on my heart. He put me on yet another med. A blood pressure med. I have never had high blood pressure either. Its actually always been on the lower side but my heart has been pretty stable since then. I hope I just didnt jinx myself by saying that.
My ex worked and couldnt get my daughter on and off the bus. Every morning I would wake up at 5:45 am and drive 20 mins to get my daughter up ready and on the bus for school. I would drive back home, do what I had to do, then drive back again to get her off the bus. It doesnt seem like much but doing this every day takes a toll. Another awesome effect from the stroke is that when I get over tired, I black out and pass out. I can be laying in bed and the next second I will be out for the night. The next morning I will wake up and not remember what happened before I fell asleep. Wonderful. So because I was over tired from getting up early and spending all day doing what I had to do, this started happening to me. I ended up taking naps during the day so i could stay up past 9pm. I told my ex that it just wasn't going to work that way anymore and I wanted Brianna to stay by me for 3 days a week. I was able to get her and spend good time with her at night and wake up a little later in the morning. This meant though that Brianna had to wake up a little earlier to get to school on time. She hated waking up lol but she did love being here.
She is a doll. She loves me and her dad so much. She is literally the reason I am here.
If the day didn't happen exactly the way it did, who knows what would have happened to me. What if I was just home? What if it happened while I was sleeping? What if it happened the next day when Brianna didn't have dance? I would have probably not gone to the hospital. I am torn on how I feel about this. Of course I wish it never happened but thank god it happened at the exact time it did.
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